Well, it's time, it's one of those days again...but it's actually been a pretty long time since I've had one of THOSE days. They used to come about every two weeks, but it's been well over a month (according to past blog posts) Still, it has just been one of those days. It's a tough adoption day. I don't know how else to put it. This journey is tough. I've known that there is a little girl 1/2 way around the world just waiting for me for almost 3 1/2 months. I have yet to meet her, but I know I love her and I long for her. I can't even imagine how I'm going to feel in the weeks between her court date--when we meet her and leave her behind--until we can go back to Ethiopia to bring her home!
Today, because things have actually progressed, because she is healthy (as far as we know) and because we have our court date set, it's not nearly as bad as some of my tough adoption days have been. There are no tears, there is no anger. Sure, I'm a little crabby (poor Chris--it's mostly with him), but for the most part I'm just sad. I miss my baby girl. My family doesn't feel quite complete. I want to hold her. I want to love on her. I want her to know that she is loved.
I'm sure I'll be fine in the morning, but I just hate days like this.
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Prepare to hear the truth. These days... suck. And they do not get better. You have to find some way.. some verse.. some prayer .. that helps you keep it together. And hang onto it for all your might. This heals only after they are in your arms. I wish I had something better- more encouraging to say--- but i found it true and the truth can be empowering. Your pain is yours and so will be the healing and strength it takes to not lose sanity all together.
It's actually gotten much better since we've finally made some progress in our case.
I do realize that my tough adoption days will still be around once she's home, though. They'll just be a different kind of tough!
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